Giving into love and sharing my time

Letting someone into my misery

I told it all step by step

How I landed on the island

And how I swim across the sea

And it crosses my mind

That I may awake to a knife in me

No more breath in my hair, or ladies underwear

Tossed up over the alarm clock

Blood dripping from the bed to a neatly written poem

A heartfelt last line reading

It's all in my head, she said, "Morning after nightmare

"You're building a wall," she said, "higher than the both of us

"So try living life, instead of hiding in the bedroom

"Show me a smile, and I'll promise not to leave you"

It happened under a rainy cloud

Passing through the dark South

We went into a big house, and slept in a small bed

I didn't know you then

As well as you of me

We talked of our sad lives

I found your overseas souvenirs

Holiday greeting cards

Those long forgotten high school fears

"It's all in my head," I said, banging a piano

"I've not been so alone," I thought, "since kicking in the womb"

I drank so much tea, I wrote my letters in Kanji

Around the block, I walked and walked

Pretending you were with me

The hurting never ends

Like birthdays and old friends

We forget that this flesh, blood, and bone is human

Trading phone lines to airlines

Unwilling to face that love is found on the inside, not the outside

And like a medicine bottle in the cabinet, I'll keep you

And like a medicine bottle in my hand, I will hold you

And swallow you slowly, as to last me a lifetime

Without holding too tight

I do not want to lose the thrill that it gives me

To look out from my window and scowl at the houses

From my world in the bedroom

"It's all in his head", she read in her girlfriend's self-help book

"It's all his own making; a war with himself

"Like two sides of a wall that separates two countries

"He shuts out the world he once knew to love you"