No I know

I'm a walking contradiction and it shows

Got a history of being in control

I'm aware that I could end up here alone

But then we spoke

I had a backbone made of glass and then it broke

Now I stay up and I wait here by the phone

If you're ready all I mean is we could go

And I've never craved someone's attention

As much as yours, thought I should mention that

But it's fine

'Cause I can tell that I'm projecting half the time

I lack context so I've made up all these lies

Its just the only thing that helps me sleep at night

And now I'm looking in the mirror

You made me vain, I can't believe I have to be her

You've turned all my skies to pouring rain

Locked me out the house again

Is this how you see me?

Now I'm reeling and I might

Break the windows, let myself back in

Lost it for a minute there

Get my shit together

It's whatever

But I could die

Knowing that you're probably out somewhere

While I'm in my underwear

Eating through my feelings

I'm still reeling but it's fine

Oh, thank God that you're not seeing this

I'll spare you from everything

If you would still have me

I'll be waiting all my life